Ok so I know I should have posted this yesterday but better late than never right?? 😉
I’m sorry I haven’t had a chance to blog since last week AND that this is a day late. I went back to work this week…very part time but it still has me waking up at 4:45am to get ready each morning! BIG change from the yoga pants everyday 🙂
But I promise as soon as I adjust to this new schedule I’ll blog more often! I’m thinking about adding a page of healthier recipes I’m trying/like, because several people have asked for them.
Back to the weight loss battle…
I say battle because this week was definitely a fight.
A fight to make working out a priority.
A fight to take the time to eat healthy instead of quick & easy.
A fight to not indulge in every tasty treat that popped into my head. You see, when I get stressed out I eat. Thats just what I’ve always done (other than the year of pre-wedding weight loss aka 2010). So this week with all of the many adjustments and stress I could tell old habits were trying to pop back up.
So I promise to be real and truthful when writing, and that is EXACTLY what this post is.
Important background info on me:
For those of you that don’t already know this.
I have struggled with my weight my entire life.
I was the fat kid in middle school.
The skinny(er) girl in high school (some of this was natural “slimming out” & some of it was an unhealthy obsession/self-image issues).
Then came the college…(+25lbs).
Then I got engaged…and healthy…and in the best shape of my life.
Then came the “married, in school, working, don’t care…(+15lbs).”
Then “the preggo 60lbs” 🙂
& the post preggo…with 40+ lbs to loose!
Throughout my life I have had this ongoing battle to loose weight. Although it has been somewhat of a roller coaster, I do know what it feels like to be successful in loosing weight…in both a not so healthy way and a very healthy way. But that knowledge isn’t enough…I’m not only trying to loose weight but also break bad habits.
***THE MOST IMPORTANT THING THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK***
I ate out a couple times over the weekend and did not workout. I was honestly frustrated with current the pace of “getting healthy” and was having a bit of a pity party. As a result…
I gained 2 lbs!!
I had this moment of…
“screw it! I’m done. I don’t care. If I can’t miss a few days of working out and eat at a restaurant (while still making healthy choices!!!) then I quite. 2 lbs is 1/4…25% of what I have worked so hard to loose. I’m never going to be able to do this. PLUS, I’m going to have more babies and I’ll just have to do this crap allllll over again. THIS IS POINTLESS!”
Then I remembered how I felt:
- That day I really looked in the mirror.
- That day that I lost the first pound…and the day I had lost 4 pounds.
- The evening spent reading message after message from friends and family that were encouraging me, asking for accountability or inspired by my first post.
This is the important part–> I decided that I am not quitting. I am not going to give up that easily!
This is a life long commitment to be a healthier me…and it is going to be hard. There will be moments where I want to throw in the towel. But (for me) I have decided that quitting isn’t an option when it comes to my health.
So this week I’m focusing on the fact that I lost the two pounds that I gained last weekend and I’m back to where I started last Thursday. But in the back if my mind I can’t help but think…
I could have lost 10 lbs and be in the double digits right now.
But thinking that does nothing. It doesn’t get me to losing 10 lbs & it doesn’t change what is.
So I’ve lost 10 😉 but I’m down 8 lbs. I’m choosing to “celebrate the little victories.” 🙂
Exercising this week:
I don’t know why I can’t seem to work out more than 4 days a week…I don’t know what it is about that 5th day that is so hard to get in! I think it’s because three nights a week Barry is either at class or C3 Students. I make excuses during the little bit of time we have together and then don’t want to do it by myself…
I did actually go to the gym (our “clubhouse” gym) and do an arm workout & a little leg workout too!
I HATE doing weights.
Seriously I would rather do cardio twice a day…obviously with the given stats I wouldn’t really do cardio twice a day but you get the picture.
So I did 3 days of cardio and one day of weights/a little elliptical.
I also was able to do a few 2 & 3 minute running intervals!! If you read my blog last week you know that I tried to see how long I could run one day and could not even get to three minutes. Again, this is me celebrating the little victories...while I was running the said three minutes (for the second time) & feeling like I was going to die I kept thinking:
This is ridiculous! I worked so hard and I’ve lost it all. 3 minutes is nothing.
But in the past this thinking would have caused me to quit. Come home, cry and not run for months.
So I had a decision. I chose to tell myself to shut up & “celebrated” the little victory. I’m so glad I did because it felt awesome to accomplish something!
I’m not quitting!
My mileage is low this week because of the day of doing weights.
Total miles for this week:
I track my mileage using my Garmin! I’ve had it for two years but it still works great. Definitely worth the investment! It tells you your distance, heart rate (you wear a heart rate band), current pace, average pace, and calories burned. It’s everything right in one spot!
Not much change on the eating front other than trying to lower my carb intake. I also did much better about eating breakfast most mornings. So thats 2 out of 3 goals from last week that I accomplished!
I actually got stuff to make lettuce wraps at home and I’m planning on doing that for myself on our next “taco night.” I’ll be sure to add that in with other foods/recipes I’m going to post.
Goals for this week:
1.WORK OUT 5 DAYS…I’m doing it…for real 🙂
2. Eat more green stuff (as in healthy green stuff)
3. Do a strength/weight workout twice
I wish I could put into words how much you motivate me. Seriously! If you are reading this, you are a huge motivator for me. On Sunday night when I want pizza. On Tuesday when I DO NOT want to workout. I think of (the few 🙂 ) people who follow this blog and what I would say on my Thursday weight loss update if I didn’t stick to it.
I’m not perfect. I’m fighting a battle everyday. I will always be honest.
But most importantly I’m not quitting.
There will be a post…in what feels like the far off future….
of a BEFORE & AFTER- the fourth and last time 🙂
“You can throw in the towel, OR you can use it to wipe the sweat off your face.”